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the name's greed ([personal profile] nestingdevil) wrote2024-02-19 03:17 pm

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[personal profile] admonish 2025-02-10 05:55 am (UTC)(link)
Popular with a different crowd then, not unlike here. Except you aren’t being chased down by anyone. Which has to be liberating in its own right.

[ His answer is quick and to the point. ] Not in the context you might be accustomed to, but I remember falling asleep on your couch. It wasn’t terrible, you stayed with me for most of the night — I remember feeling your hand on my leg.

[ He exhales in an overly exaggerated manner, giving the phone a are you serious look. ] You don’t care what I am, I don’t care what you are or what you’ve done. If I didn’t want to know I wouldn’t ask, but just say you don’t want to talk about it. You know I won’t push.

[ He probably wouldn’t have noticed him being distracted even without the liquid courage in his belly right now. He finds himself chewing on his lip, eyes meeting the floor. He never looks down, always being so sure of himself when eyes are upon him. ]

I’m asking you if it’s strange that I want to be alone with you outside of the bar. I can’t figure it out myself but something feels different. .. Fuck, just ignore that, I’m getting lost in my head again. [ And he can feel his anxiety building, it can’t catch up to him if he runs away from it first. ] Sure, we could do that. If you can keep the theft to a minimum, though..

[ Unfortunately, he takes the pause to mean he overstepped his boundaries, so he hesitates for a moment. How can he backpedal out of this foolishness? Oh, he should have just kept his damn mouth shut. ]

Yeah. Yeah, I will. I won’t keep you any longer, you have to get back to work, right?
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[personal profile] admonish 2025-02-11 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
No, you wouldn’t be the type to hide away and lick your wounds. It’s a trait I admire, hiding just delays the inevitable and keeps one from enjoying life. Better to have loved and lost, hm?

[ Needless to say, this conversation is sobering him up quicker than his body can and he is silently cursing over it. ]

You had already helped me more than you needed to but I suppose dwelling on it now doesn’t do me any good. You did what you did and I’m grateful for it. When I needed help you gave it to me without a second thought. I don’t know why I chose that roof, I was never intending to go inside. I just wanted to catch my breath.

[ A partial truth, his wings carried him there because it was a safe, neutral space. Even though the two of them fought viciously at one point, he knew Greed would treat him fairly and not try to put an angelic weapon through his chest on sight. Their chats gave him an incredible amount of insight about not the man and the monster. ]

No! [ A bit calmer: ] No, I don’t need to know about your history. That isn’t what I was trying to say, I just wanted you to know that if something does happen, you can rely on me. If it makes it easier, I can say the Seal of Confession means I will never share your secrets.

I’m not dense, Greed, that has nothing to do with it. If you think I haven’t noticed? You’re wrong, you’re so very wrong. [ His voice is muffled as he scrubs a hand across his face, sighing against it. This wasn’t part of the plan tonight, he was just going to bullshit with him for a little while and go right back to the festivities.

Now he is visibly trying to tuck himself away into a corner to hide not just from prying eyes but also himself. Fuck, this is not how he wanted to do this. Did he even want to do this? God, he doesn’t even know himself anymore. ]


Do you know what it feels like to want for something that you shouldn’t? That you can’t have? You want everything, don’t you? I’ve never— [ He cuts himself off, switching the phone to his other ear. ] To be fed the tales of how vile and mindless Sinners are, of how they will be the thing that destroys us, how they will do anything to tempt an angel away from His Grace.

I thought there was something wrong with me. I’ve never felt want because I was never supposed to feel it. I expected it to wither on the vine but it has grown since that night. It was a dull roar before but now..

[ He closes his eyes and listens to the sounds of life on the other end of the phone because watching everyone else is distracting. If he doesn’t ground himself then he isn’t ever going to get this out. ]

You should’ve just let me stay in my head, it would have saved us both a little grief, but you just had to find a way in. I suppose that’s par for the course for you. [ He exhales through his nose, not quite getting the fully intended laugh out. Where a heart should be, he feels his chest begin to ache and places a hand over it, expecting to find a weeping wound. ]

If I knew what I wanted, this conversation would be a lot easier. [ Only two people have ever asked him what he wanted before and even then, he had no answer for the first one. He nearly lets it happen a second time but finds his mouth moving of its own accord. ] I want to know what this is.

Even if I’m damned because I pursued it, I want to know. To see it through.
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[personal profile] admonish 2025-02-14 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
Considering I attacked and tried to kill you in the same week? I'd be willing to call that above and beyond a favor, you should've turned heel and walked away when you saw me up there. Before I knew you, had I come across the scene, I'm not sure I would have been as generous.

[ No, even when he was the most disappointed in humanity, he still would have reached his hand out to them whether they asked for his help or not. Does that make him a pushover? Maybe, but he can't change what he is. He will always be there in someone's greatest time of need and not because of some role given to him in life. He takes pride in what he does, and it gives him purpose. ]

I think you've already confessed enough to me, I'll let you keep some of your secrets out of the goodness of my heart. [ A gentle tease. ] If you told me everything in one sitting, what else would do for the rest of the night? My stories pale in comparison, I'm afraid, and you know more of them than most. [ Than anyone actually but that fact is obvious, Greed knows how much he appreciates his privacy. ]

Except neither one of us has a soul to bargain with, only a core with enough energy to power a network. When they are judged to be damned, they have the opportunity for redemption. What do we lose, Greed, if we're judged the same? [ He sounds so far away despite the proximity of his mouth to the receiver. He's given this thought. ] What you've wanted, would you have been willing to give up all that you are for it? Would the price be worth it?

[ There is always a price and very rarely is it ever a fair one across the board. He weighs the words he says to him carefully, letting the phone fall down to his side for a moment. His mouth feels dry all of the sudden, eyes scanning the lights above him as they dance between various colors. When he lifts the phone back up, he sounds unsure. ] I don't know what I want you to say, and that part terrifies me. Of course we have it wrong, look at the representation.

[ .. pfft. No, he isn't wrong at all. ]

You wouldn't be getting lost in your head over there, would you? I hear that's frowned upon here. [ He had to, he really did. Months of getting told to stop doing that have bubbled up to the surface, he can hardly be blamed for being a little cheeky. ] Ugh. That man could drink an Olympic-sized swimming pool full of these drinks and still be able to function, I'm convinced he is cheating somehow. Very well, I will, thank you.

[ The offer is touching and while he would rather play up the I'm fine card, he knows better. Whether he gives the green light or not, that door is going to open up at some point tonight and Saint Avaricious is going to make an unscheduled pitstop. ]

Probably? You know it is. I'd tell you not to worry about it, but I feel like I have no say in the matter and I'm sure I'll thank you for it in the morning. Thank you in advance just in case I'm not able to tell you later.